tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71495122011-10-04T19:25:35.311-04:00Tales from the lighter side of my life... those thoughts and ramblings that come from MY living with BiPolar.Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.comBlogger4001100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1077757861781333832011-08-02T22:05:00.001-04:002011-08-02T22:07:15.152-04:00

my nap. it was deserved, and nice.The cat turned the bed into a massager... it was vibrating.AWESOME!

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blogs i have missed youlife has gotten out of handand i have forgotten what i love most about youbut now i rememberand i promise to return... sooner than later. until thenthank you for being here ready and waiting for my thoughts, ideas and ramblings...ttfn

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i have been cleaning up my facebook page... cause there's a lot of crap on it... and came across this in my notes... written in July 2008. Kind of made me giggle. then i remembered why i wrote it. Just wanted to add it to the mix.Just a warning!Being my friend can cause pain, heartache, disappointment and the tendency to want to murder me.I am giving everyone the choice to maintain contact and

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-70878520410433077192010-05-20T12:10:00.002-04:002010-05-20T12:15:37.407-04:00

Today I am not depressed, but I am tired.Today I am unmotivated, but I did mow the lawn and flatten a pile of dirt. Also did my good deed and mowed the neighbours front yard too.Today I am tired, even though I got more than enough sleep.Today I am smiling even though I am alone.Today I love him, miss him and hope he has a great vacation even though I am glad he is away. I get to rediscover

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For as long as I can remember I have been a basketcase. Over-reacting, over-analyzing, illogical and irrational about almost every facet of my existance. I require friends to keep me grounded and well... not crazy.Until now.I stopped the medication in March. and feel better now than I ever have. My mind is clear. I am seeing life as it should be, to be enjoyed and experienced. I want to get

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-9596915994034955902009-10-07T10:38:00.003-04:002009-10-07T10:43:37.006-04:00

Sometimes talking to a friend can make the shit going on with me seem miniscule. Which really is what I need 90% of the time.So what if the dryer decided to quit, and the cupboard fell off the wall.It could be worse, someone could be hurt, or dying.Accidents happen, they are meant to test one's endurance and strength. Learn from the situation and move on.Appliances breaking, cabinets falling.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-6748781759088426022009-05-05T00:32:00.002-04:002009-05-05T00:35:27.823-04:00

You are torn between wanting to get out and do something that takes you far away or staying at home and isolating yourself from the rest of the world. But neither of these extremes will work as you probably have your regular responsibilities to handle today. Others may not even realize your current dissatisfaction for you are masterful now at covering your unfulfilled desires with apparent

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-66498596801008950332008-12-08T21:34:00.001-05:002008-12-08T21:36:19.234-05:00

So I decided to have a drink after work... a Grands Cosmo.Then I had another... then suddenly the bottle was empty.OOOPSS..I'm a little tipsy! lolthank goodness I dontt have to work tomorrow!

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I haven't quite decided if I am having fun yet though. It's all been happening fairly quickly. I got the wedding notification months ago... probably before Christmas. My Cousin E's wedding in Edmonton, Alberta. Roughly 36 hours away from my house. The big debate was the best way to get there and the cheapest way - cause I'm still on disability.My cousin L, who lives in Hamilton (about an hour

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-26676840436872991122008-04-26T16:52:00.003-04:002008-04-26T16:57:52.080-04:00

Watching the cat bounce and dance across the room.Fascinated as the toy mouse gets tossed all about.Her desperately trying to get into my water bottle because in her feline eyes my water is somehow cleaner, more fresh and colder than hers.Pulling into the driveway and seeing her staring out the window waiting for me to come home.The croak-like meows that beg for treats.The quiet purrs that

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-76883565533851672102008-04-10T23:38:00.003-04:002008-04-11T00:06:41.438-04:00

For months now I have been thinking I should write. Seriously sit and vocalize (visually)what has been going on using the modes and medias available to me. And the only words that pop into my head and hands are the same ones that I have written on many different occasions over the last few years.I am still bipolar and always will be. Along with the joys and turmoils that go hand in hand with the

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-74492696635533804102008-01-28T19:22:00.000-05:002008-01-28T19:59:51.699-05:00

Asia, my baby, warmer of feet, bather of hands and giver of comfort. George, my turkey, the one who gives kisses, and giggler at the Simpson's.I gave you away, out of love and respect. You deserve more than I can give you. Although you may be with a new family now, you will always hav a piece of my heart.I love you George.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-9811160446250159252007-10-17T19:49:00.000-04:002007-10-17T19:59:22.062-04:00

i have to do this in point form... just because it's too messed up.woke up today bitter, couldn't stand noise, contact, the animals... nothin.the phone rang and I yelled at it... not the person calling - but the phone. (yup - that's irritable)got ready and went to my appointment, she is starting me on a new medication, the old one was giving me effed up side effects.got yelled at to make sure I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-90268588183177058792007-10-16T22:47:00.000-04:002007-10-16T23:14:55.913-04:00

I felt it this morning. That huge weight, boulder-like, slightly shifted, not falling to the ground, still there, yet not as immenselly heavy. So different from the moods of late. And so unexpected considering I am on the smallest possible dose of an anti-depressant, soon to be off it, and soon to be starting another, more interesting drug.Today was easier. I don't know wh. Nor do I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-67757247330734292062007-10-07T10:54:00.000-04:002007-10-07T10:59:44.215-04:00

I can't believe it.The last 2 days I was thinking the depression has gotten worse, and I'm bored.Restless, annoyed tired and BORED!I guess it took 11 months for me to tire of being home. Now, even though I am bored, I do not want to go out side. I don't really want to be on the computer and I am beginning to dislike tv.So what to do?Clean? lol - that's not entertaining. It's more agravating

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-60545049149092828572007-08-14T19:11:00.000-04:002007-08-14T19:23:09.660-04:00

Well... hello bloggerland! It's been a while.I must confess I have fallen for that new world of Facebook. Finding and reminiscing with old friends, it's easier to chat with family, and there are cool things to do - send people drinks, plands, presents, fish. It's fun.However, I am not writing now to endorse FB I am simply explaining my absence.being bipolar is... well...It definitely makes

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-71331662969717238752007-07-22T21:51:00.000-04:002007-07-22T21:53:52.406-04:00

Maggie is officially mine.Her last payment came out on Friday.It seems a relief and I am greatful for that "extra" money...Too bad being on leave means I shop more, I still have my student loan and my Visa has a balance...Once all my friends stop taking vacation I should be good to go!

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-38144400990980242322007-07-02T16:36:00.001-04:002007-07-02T16:41:32.520-04:00

You know when you are just sitting around thinking - there’s something I should do - but haven’t done… hhhhmmmm.Well. The Intelligent person that I am just figured it out!BLOGS!I haven’t written in them in a while.I occupy my time with Facebook, slingo, and Addictinggames.com.I watch/listen to movies during this time… and Sometimes I even write in my journal.I have to keep an activity schedule,

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I doubt anyone reads this anymore - I haven't checked my tracker in ages. But - as it is my journal (of sorts) I am going to keep writing... just cause I can.I was out yesterday - by the river in Chippewa, sunning, writing, and listening to music.I forgot that one of the warnings on one of my medications is to avoid excessive heat - and I had to leave after an hour and a half because I was so out

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-74044171859567621972007-06-06T21:19:00.000-04:002007-06-06T21:27:09.814-04:00

I am finally home. It was a great visit in Windsor - although 3 weeks doesn't constitiute a visit when you are looking after kids.I can't believe how tired I am - I feel like I have slept the 3 days since I got home, and I am still exhausted. Even driving home from my brothers I had to stop at a service station on the way and nap for fear of falling asleep behind the wheel. George is returning

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-26070505342218291502007-05-27T23:28:00.000-04:002007-05-27T23:38:15.633-04:00

1. I think I am sick. Not in the head - but an actual cold. My nose is running and stuffy at the same time - it is very uncool. And I have a sore throat. My Brother admitted to a sore throat tonight - and I don't think that's a good sign. If he feels it - then I am doomed.2. I'm officially on long term disability. And on new medication - if I could stay awake without having to pass out

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-54211226532405660642007-05-17T16:35:00.000-04:002007-05-17T16:41:09.483-04:00

I feel like I have dropped of the face of the planet - which in retrospect is wrong - you can't drop off the face of the planet - you need to become a projectile and then shot off the face of the planet - but whatever - that's beside the point.I am in Windsor -enjoying spending time with my nieces - which is completely reaffirming my desire to not procreate! Kids are great - the whole "family"

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-50003069353641798482007-05-08T19:25:00.000-04:002007-05-08T19:26:28.884-04:00

I’ve decided to become an alcoholic.Not a closet alcoholic - since I’ve announced it.Just an alcoholic.I don’t condone drug use… If it were up to me I wouldn’t even take my prescription medications.I don’t smoke cigarettes - it’s too unattractive and, well… the cancer concern is a bit too much for me.Yet lately I feel the need to have some sort of addiction that allows me to combine one addiction

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-63657374640540715982007-05-07T11:11:00.000-04:002007-05-07T11:13:43.697-04:00

So… I’ve been talking to Phoenix, well cause that’s what I do.And we came tot the realization that I don’t write as often as I used to, but the suggestion was made that I should just leave a note and say HI! I’m still alive, living this so-called life. I am doing the best I can, with what I’ve got…Basically I am a walking cliché!And on a funny note. I just scared the crap out of George. He was

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-15594658828553250572007-04-24T19:13:00.000-04:002007-04-24T19:21:26.437-04:00

It's almost over - school, the endless avoidance of homework, and the feeling of being pressured... all the time.The meds are ... well meds.I am losing my interest in Facebook and am thinking of deleting my profile at the end of the month.I feel the need to get back to my roots - do all the things I claim I am doing but instead I am just sitting on the fucking computer wasting my own time...

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I am actually not sure which blog this belongs in - it's going to be random and slightly confusing - but I do have a point.It, apparently, is OK to feel numb and empty on this medication, it means it's working. But I kind of like having emotions and feelings. The moments of total body numbness means the meds are working - but they pass fairly quickly, as long as I don't fall down it's no harm no

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-80509449479207271322007-04-07T10:50:00.000-04:002007-04-07T11:04:39.683-04:00

I have a google mail account. It's cool, the personalized page that pops up - that you can personalize and that is just for me!Well - on my page I have my horoscope, everyday a new horoscope that is just for me. The strange thing is - for the last 2 weeks everyday that horoscope has accurately conveyed my emotional state, and the general feeling I have upon waking before even turning on the

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-80023273085720288322007-04-06T21:30:00.000-04:002007-04-06T21:40:03.385-04:00

It’s funny how the world flips in turn and the things that were exciting or interesting become dull.The same thing happens with the things that are exciting on the internet.I mean look at the activity drop within Blogger’s circle - where’d everybody go?And MySpace? Or Hi5?Yes - people still like it - but it is way too commercial.Now it’s FaceBook.com. A place where you can more easily find

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-24930502840555147092007-04-01T07:08:00.000-04:002007-04-01T07:10:25.576-04:00

Weirdest thing is knowing it’s over and done with. I have no regrets, I do have some discomfort so I am reminded of my choice - but I have no regrets.I know I have made the “right” decision for me. Not everyone would choose this path, but I am strangely comfortable with my choice. I could use some more Advil - but everything else is ok.For some reason I thought I’d have more to write about… but I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-2634387367268731802007-03-27T08:18:00.000-04:002007-03-27T08:19:43.756-04:00

I had the most fucked up dream ever last night.My Mom and step-dad were still together (or back together, not positive about those details) and he was still an asshole / jerk / compulsive idiot!One of the “kids” a boy was giving gifts to friends and I was helping wrap and organize. And we were making hot dogs but putting some in hamburger buns and some in sub buns. My sister and brother were both

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-26318109717103335102007-03-24T11:38:00.000-04:002007-03-24T11:40:22.080-04:00

I'm not bored.I'm lonely.I'm not crazy.I'm mentally unstimulated.I'm not hungry.I'm bored.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-41914978556666813342007-03-23T10:28:00.000-04:002007-03-23T10:30:02.248-04:00

There’s so much going on in my head and in my life I don’t know where to begin.Today is Friday.I have had breakfast, taken my pills and finished season 7 of Charmed. Now I am gonna watch The Departed.My plan after that - maybe I’ll shower, I’d love to finish my book - or at least read for an hour or two.And I want to go for a walk - it’s nice and sunny out today.I am having surgery in 7 days. I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-73467608494634723092007-03-10T10:44:00.000-05:002007-03-10T10:47:56.590-05:00

Ever notice how easy it is to piss off the people you love. And it’s all emotion based.No one can live without emotions, we all experience them and we all need to accept that they are there.That’s what I have learned in CBT. Emotions are a part of life - it’s how you deal with them that makes the difference.One single situation can create a variety of emotions - both positive or negative - it’s

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I’m kind of disappointed.I never thought I would feel like this.I think the hypo-mania is fizzling out.And I kind of miss it.Although, having MY life back will be good - going to the grocery store when I want, buying something I need without having to ask for permission.But the sheer happiness is ending. It’s not that I am not “happy” or emotional for that matter. It’s just the little things that

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-44669858087562811502007-03-03T16:42:00.000-05:002007-03-03T16:43:09.496-05:00

It’s a little demeaning being reliant on others to make decisions.I went into a hypo-manic phase. I’m not allowed to say manic cause there’s a difference and I am not manic - just really hyper and having other symptoms.So hypo it is.And well…Being told by the doctor and the therapist that I am not allowed to drive and I have to relinquish my bank and credit cards to a friend that I trust is not

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-65151336989997481572007-02-28T14:14:00.001-05:002007-02-28T14:14:56.849-05:00

I’ve done some strange things in my time. I mean, being escorted out of a town by police to prevent a friend from being arrested, you know - things like that.Today is the start of a new era - the next phase in bathing the bird. I have discovered that he can be shampooed using no more tears baby shampoo. So today was his first “shampoo”. It wasn’t as bad for me as I thought, I expected scratches,

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-52951568939974061642007-02-27T10:49:00.000-05:002007-02-27T10:50:33.838-05:00

OkI think I lied - or misinterpreted the signs.I woke up today on a mission.I am tidying, doing dishes, on my second load of laundry and I don’t want to stop.Not sure whether or not it’s mania or excitement about seeing the doctor today, and going out for lunch with a friend.But whatever it is - I’m gonna come home to a clean house.I love my French class - I went to my teacher last night and told

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-92175600912557899472007-02-26T08:45:00.000-05:002007-02-26T08:46:00.905-05:00

I think it’s over.NO not the world, just the manic cycle I have been in for the last 4 days.I can’t say I will miss the bouncing, constant movement and well the giggling and talking relaly fast - but maybe - just maybe - I can concentrate a little harder now.I say I think it’s over - because I went to bed at 10pm last night and slept until just after 8am.This is the most sleep I have had in a

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-44706375443886554342007-02-19T14:32:00.000-05:002007-02-19T15:04:25.768-05:00

BareNaked Ladies - Friday night - absolutely incredible! Phoenix and I had a fantastic time, and I was stronger than I thought. One major panic attack but just in the crowd awaiting the wristbands/USB cards from the show. BUt we got through it and all was well.I got home and broke my USB card within a day - stupid balance ball rolled into it and now it doesn't work and I hadn't ahad a chance

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-67718612709895644102007-02-10T07:50:00.000-05:002007-02-06T16:17:57.092-05:00

I am so grateful to my sister, and my Mom for being willing to change their plans to be with me in my time of crisis. My sister actually came to spend the night with me and we chatted, went for sushi (yum!) and she was just here. I didn't feel as alone and even though the dark thought was there, I knew I could just call my sister - or cry and she would be there for me.Just the knowledge that

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-79748119871774590052007-02-06T16:03:00.000-05:002007-02-06T16:17:57.768-05:00

Ok... so this isn't the post you all wanted to here. Or read.Today has been the best day I have had in ages.IT started with the taking of Maggie to the body shop, she got smacked - my poor baby! I now have a 2007 Mazda 3 which is really cool actually. I have a ZoomZoom! heheheAnd they washed it before they gave it to me... adn it's so effing cold out I have a car covered in ice pellets!Then I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-37391315797475994312007-01-29T23:17:00.000-05:002007-01-29T23:24:40.221-05:00

my week is busier than I thought it would be... even without work I have so much to do.Monday and Thursday night I have class...Thursday morning I have cognitive therapy (physically and emotionally draining). I was talking to a friend and I mentioned it's like being emotionally raped - all I need is a pap smear and the raping would be complete.Tomorrow I have my doctors appointment... that will

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-57706178662392248362007-01-26T09:16:00.000-05:002007-01-26T09:30:10.660-05:00

What's up?Where have you been?How are you?Who you been hanging out with?Why did time start moving so quickly?When are you going to write for others to see?I keep looking at myself and wondering these things... and more.What's up? It seems like nothing - but between 2 french classes, weekly therapy, appointments and the bird. Plus I have developed the strangest addiction to www.slingo.com and I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-29300183269034367602007-01-19T16:50:00.000-05:002007-01-19T17:01:25.503-05:00

Well... I fixed the comment problem with this blog.. no idea what happened with that. Sorry all.I have no idea what happened. I started CBT therapy and it seems like it will be emotionally draining, physically exhausting and highly interesting at the same time. I have devoted time to it, and will do the work that needs to be done. Having read the first chapter of the program I realize that a

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-18907343328934069742007-01-17T09:13:00.000-05:002007-01-17T09:21:34.989-05:00

It's been a while since I've written anything here. I don't know why. I guess my handwritten journal is giving me more solace. But I feel the need to share.We had an ice storm this week, and it's officially winter temperatures. I don't mind simply because it's really pretty. The trees, bushes, telephone lines all sparkle in the sunlight. Hell, they even sparkle with the street lamps. It's

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-4424885876358041832007-01-04T09:35:00.000-05:002007-01-04T09:41:34.755-05:00

I have become the person friends come to for relationship advice. One suggested last night that I should start a website for all the good advice I give. I didn't tell him about my blogs.I don't like that the advice I give can make or break the potential relationship that my friends could have. It is a little disconcerting. But for some reason I am the trusted confidant, and the knowledgeable

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1167755482400539052007-01-02T11:28:00.000-05:002007-01-02T11:31:22.430-05:00

I am getting a new toilet today.My landlord just told me.The one I have now has a crack on the lid and it spontaneously runs. It is also the old style that uses tons of water.New Year, New toilet... hehehe I don't know, it's kind of funny in my head.Oh... and the sun is shining today.Excuse me while I go out and enjoy it for a while.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1167620943831292432006-12-31T22:08:00.000-05:002006-12-31T22:09:03.860-05:00

I was thinking about my New Year’s Resolutions. What are they? What do I resolve for myself? Do I resolve to be thinner, to be healthier, to fall in love? Do I resolve to be a better person, kinder and more generous? Do I resolve to think of others first, and to give until I have nothing more to give? Or do I resolve to think of myself more, to take the steps that I have to take to become

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1167589622316196352006-12-31T13:19:00.000-05:002006-12-31T13:27:02.350-05:00

I got up today thinking how nice it would be to start the year off with a clean house...So I stripped my bed, started laundry, and have been cleaning ever since.I vacuumed, went on garbage patrol, took out the recycling, dusted, scrubbed the bathroom... The only thing left is to wash the floor.I feel like I have actually accomplished something today. It makes me feel better. Just a little.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1166908972333889282006-12-23T16:19:00.000-05:002006-12-23T16:22:52.366-05:00

Just 2 more sleeps until Santa comes.well...one sleep if you take sleeping pills and sleep through tomorrow.I can see the excitment of the kids now... it's infectious.It is fascinating that Santa is a mystical and magical person. Yet as soon as he arrives in person (like at a Christmas Party) there are kids that freak out, cry shirk away in fear. The myth of Santa is more fascinating than the

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1166836630037519442006-12-22T20:16:00.000-05:002006-12-22T20:25:29.806-05:00

I miss snow.I never thought I would say that, but it just isn't Christmas without snow.I am glad I am off work and able to be here with my family. The kids make it all worth it.My sister-in-law has been great, and she understands that sometimes I need to be alone.I traveled to Windsor to see everyone, I got here first so I get a bed. HURRAY! George came too - he brought his own bed! heheheI

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1166438015301669742006-12-18T05:29:00.000-05:002006-12-18T05:33:35.330-05:00

Too much coffee...I guess after a cleanse caffeine is "full strength" and man... I am wide awake.I mean it's 5:30am and I am still awake.A good lesson if you want to know.But I'm gonna be on right grumpy git today if I don't get some sleep.Oh... I should mention I've been reading Harry Potter again... 3 hours in one night and I start speaking with my accent!Blimey!We'll... since I can't sleep, I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1166422593335410362006-12-18T01:15:00.001-05:002006-12-18T01:16:33.363-05:00

At what point does it become too weird to leave the house? How much has to happen before you say “you know, I think the fates are telling me to just stay home.”I had a day like that.First I was running late - I slept in and it all started from there… when I rushed outside - 20 minutes behind schedule I found a screw in my tire and my tire nearly flat. I zipped to the corner gas station and

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1165858381835397392006-12-11T12:32:00.000-05:002006-12-11T12:33:01.900-05:00

Well.. It’s day 11 and I am ready to give up. The “mucus” phase hasn’t really started yet - but I am really hungry so I am going to have to come off… I can’t say this has been pleasant.. But it has worked. I am skinnier than ever, I hope I keep most of the weight off. My mind is clear, although I can feel the depth of the depression as I have never felt it before. I don’t feel as foggy and

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1165243356959035502006-12-04T09:34:00.000-05:002006-12-04T09:42:37.086-05:00

I posted a day 3 post yesterday, but it seems to have disappeared. Oh well.Day 4...This cleanse is interesting. I can see the effects of it, the "toxins" being flushed from my body. I have even restarted drinking the "tonic" as it was mean to be. I guess I did get used to it. And it's still the same, at night I get hungry... but there is nothing I want. And I am in this too far to give up

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1165083727946390082006-12-02T13:14:00.000-05:002006-12-02T13:22:09.876-05:00

I believe I am running out of titles for these posts. That's OK though... It isn't the heading it's the content.I started the Master Cleanser "diet". Because I need to detox... Get everything out of my system. I have been on some sort of medication for my mood/migraines since I was 16 and as I am about to change medications again I thought now would be a good time to do it. My Doctor agreed (

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1164996482457506492006-12-01T12:53:00.000-05:002006-12-01T13:08:02.606-05:00

I had forgotten what it was like to be held.That feeling of safety and security.That coziness that comes with being held and caressed all night.The one thing that a single person does not want to admit (out loud) is that they are lonely. And tired of being alone.I have spent the last couple of years avoiding being in a relationship because of my disorder. And the while I have been quite content

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1164820297224366462006-11-29T11:43:00.000-05:002006-11-29T12:11:37.553-05:00

I have left the house 2 times in the last 2 days.It's only been to a movie with My friend L and then to her house yesterday - to rake leaves.... A ridiculous amount of leaves.But it was fun.. A beautiful fall day, outside and having someone to laugh and make fun of at the same time.WE even had the "garbage men" making rounds around L's street while checking us out. They made 3 passes, and they

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1164652272254346802006-11-27T13:26:00.000-05:002006-11-27T13:31:12.283-05:00

I am proud of myself... I wanted Doritos last night.After an hour of contemplation... slight anxiety and a couple of tears, the craving won and I walked out the door, got into the car and drove to the store.I was only gone less then 10 minutes... but I am calling it a success.

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1164464204055435542006-11-25T09:04:00.000-05:002006-11-25T09:16:44.096-05:00

I love those dreams in which you are healthy, skinny, and happy. The ones that, when you wake, you are more confident, more aware of yourself, and feeling the strength you had in the dream has continued into your waking life.I have no idea now what I was dreaming about... But for 10 seconds when I woke up this morning, I felt like I could conquer the world.Then I started coughing... My nose was

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1164392790496729352006-11-24T13:22:00.000-05:002006-11-24T13:26:30.536-05:00

My doctor told me that I have the flu. I thought she was just trying to placate my symptoms since I think they are the side effects of the new medication I am on.But today, I know it is the flu...Freezing on minute - sweating the next.My nose is running.I'm really tired.And my back is achy.It's OK to stay in your pajamas all day when you have the flu - right?Right?I should go have a hot bath...

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1163910365480795042006-11-18T23:11:00.000-05:002006-11-18T23:26:05.556-05:00

I got this in an e-mail and thought it worthy of public posting.. I don't normally do this... But it's just a wee bit too much to not share.McDonald's, Chuck E Cheese, Discovery Zone...Some of you might not be parents, but you may have nieces, nephews,grandchildren or friends with children. This will pertain to you too. As I read the following, my heart sank. I urge each and every one of you to

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1163706062467076972006-11-16T14:37:00.000-05:002006-11-16T14:41:02.503-05:00

I nap everyday now.For 2 hours between 1 and 3pm I lose the ability to remain conscious.Yesterday I had the priviledge of "borrowing" my landlords dog, Peppy.He came down to visit me, and curled up on my lap for a nap.That's the best kind of pet... one you borrow then return, but that loves you nonetheless.Apparently I am one of the family! Hurray!

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1162966400101281272006-11-08T01:12:00.000-05:002006-11-08T01:13:20.143-05:00

Firefly went on a trip... Without me...I miss her.and I am very jealous.Cause she gets to meet one of my favourite people in blogger-land before me.OH... Yeah.. And she went on a trip without me...I want her to have fun, relax and play... But I want her here too.GGRRRR...________________________________I went for Thai tonight....Yum!Good company, good friend, and some laughs.There was a couple at

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1162220798295563692006-10-30T09:53:00.000-05:002006-10-30T10:06:38.346-05:00

The Reality of the situation is that I am an emotional being.I have always been emotional and I always will be.There's nothing I can do about it.I spent the majority of my childhood and my adolescence hiding it and acting like I didn't have emotions and basically being that "normal" person that everyone wanted me to be... That people pleaser that I was trained to be.As am adult - diagnosed with

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1162138067461744662006-10-29T10:34:00.000-05:002006-10-29T11:07:47.650-05:00

I want to go back to bedIt seems really earlyBut it isn'tThat is all

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1161878211153243352006-10-26T11:44:00.000-04:002006-10-26T11:56:51.246-04:00

It has been interesting, that's for sure.I chose not to go in to work on Sunday, just because I was a wee bit upset about my Aunts passing (that's how work refers to her anyway). I actually made a couple of major mistakes on Saturday... but luckily the patron(s) caught them and it was corrected, so i am not in trouble.Monday; driving to Kincardine I got to drive through rain, wet snow and snow..

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1161449555738336562006-10-21T12:36:00.000-04:002006-10-21T12:52:35.776-04:00

For as long as I can remember, She was there.My Olive Oyl.And yes.. that's what I called her.Her husband was Popeye, and their daughter Sweet Pea.In fact.. I think I was 8 before I knew what her first name really was.But Olive Oyl (Beth) was my Godmother. Or she would have been if I was baptized or Christened.And I adored her.I got the call this morning.I am happy for her that she is no longer

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1161120578807513292006-10-17T17:07:00.000-04:002006-10-17T17:29:38.850-04:00

I got a new computer and it's pretty.Between the playstation and the computer this is the best investment ever!heheheoh.. and the salad bar at the new casino has SPRING MIX and Raspberry Vinigrette... So far a pretty good week!

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1160748481563831162006-10-13T10:00:00.000-04:002006-10-13T10:08:01.606-04:00

I looked out the window and saw the wet and the snow still falling from the gray sky. And I thought, "Perfect timing on that gigantic crockpot of spaghetti sauce that I made last night and let crock ALL night. That is going to be great for lunch today." Nothing like a hot, delicious bowl of one of my favourite dishes on a crappy wet day.Don't get me wrong, I know I said yesterday that I like

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1160712236192840892006-10-12T23:51:00.000-04:002006-10-13T00:03:56.546-04:00

It snowed today.Snowed!those little white flakes that fall from the sky and melt as soon as they hit the ground.Well.. they melted as long as the sun was in the sky...Then they started staying.I had to sweep the car off. AAAHHH... it's only October 12th!the funny thing is... I kind of missed it.I like snow... when I am properly dressed.Cause there's nothing worse than standing outside waiting

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1160413284517950212006-10-09T12:55:00.000-04:002006-10-09T13:01:25.336-04:00

but he's so freakin cutehe's giggling a cooing in the cornerand rubbing the cupboards with his clawed foot.I wish you could see itbut as soon as I turn the camera on he stops everything and plays "pretty" for the camera.He's such a photo slut.The sounds he makes are indescribable.He is an idiot...But he's mine.and he's making a mess... bastard...And yes BondGirl... he has a peanut... One day I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1159228714293192112006-09-25T19:52:00.000-04:002006-09-25T19:58:34.326-04:00

I hate juice.I only drink it when I am sick.Guess how many glasses of juice I have had today?Guess!!!!Extra points if you can guess what kind!Oh.. And Guess how many rounds of GOLF I have played?It's the game of the day...Yes, I am sick.. I took the day off work and everything.Nothing to worry about, just a cold.but annoying enough being as I can't take anything for it as everything except

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1158897288718872602006-09-21T23:48:00.000-04:002006-09-21T23:54:48.836-04:00

Thursday is the Best TV night EVER!!!And I love being a Canadian...Cause CTV has Grey's Anatomy, CSI, then ER back to back... so, no taping and watching later. And since I'm not bothering with Survivor this time around it doesn't bother me that Grey's Anatomy is on at the same time as Survivor... I just don't care.I love Thursday's!

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1158762309452052862006-09-20T10:14:00.000-04:002006-09-20T10:25:09.646-04:00

I was tired last night.So tired I fell asleep on the couch, something I never do.I woke up at 12:30am... and dragged my ass to bed. (After brushing my teeth and washing my face of course).I awoke this morning, came back into the living room, and was greeted by George, sitting on his perch, beside the computer... happy as can be!I guess I was SO TIRED I forgot to cover him up and lock him in his

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1158157296224409392006-09-13T10:08:00.000-04:002006-09-13T10:31:09.143-04:00

I spent part of yesterday morning buying the NEW BNL CD called - BareNaked Ladies Are Me. And I got Concert Tickets for Firefly and I for their show that is 3 days after my BIRTHDAY!!!! So.. I really must thank the BareNaked ladies for giving me a fantastic BIRTHDAY present (that I had to pay for... but whatever)I can finally replace my BNL sweatshirt since my first one is WAY TOO BIG... hehehe

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1157770782815936022006-09-08T22:42:00.000-04:002006-09-08T22:59:42.853-04:00

I was asked today if I had stopped writing.I had to think about it.No, I really haven't stopped,I just have a lot going on right now.I haven't been home. I was away for a week, with no computer access.And my blogs are causing my some discontent. The same theme, picture, background, title - everything for almost 3 years - it's starting to get a little old - especially since my entire look has

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1156041861812366322006-08-19T22:34:00.000-04:002006-08-19T22:44:21.816-04:00

I have a very special friend.She knows me better than I care to admit sometimes.And well.. She surprises me with little gifts that mean so much.She got me something (which was completely unnecessary - but she wanted to say thank-you and really a card would have been just fine) so she got me something that has kept me from the gym.. made work completely intolerable (more than usual, that is), and

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1155048872450143992006-08-08T10:40:00.000-04:002006-08-09T00:11:16.276-04:00

I was up at 7:30 am this morning.it is now 10:30 am.I am on my 3rd load of laundry.I've washed the floors.Vacuumed.And done up the few dishes that were in the sink.Took out the garbage and recycling.I made the bed, but will probably unmake it so I can wash the sheets on my next load of laundry.I also did some filing (paperwork)... Boring, I haven't done it since I moved.And I had breakfast.Next

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1154989126085352422006-08-07T18:07:00.000-04:002006-08-07T18:18:46.140-04:00

Remember when I first started at the gym, and I was lifting 23 elephants, and burning off the equivelant of 23 ice cream sundaes. Now it just doesn't seem as impressive.I am still going.I really am.It just seems I am not doing the same workout... I'm just not going as often and not lifting as much as I used to.These "progress reports" don't give me the same lift that they used to.And yet here I

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1154743186099217862006-08-04T21:26:00.000-04:002006-08-04T21:59:46.130-04:00

I recently filled out a survey that asked me what I was passionate about.I had to stop and think about it.I realized there really isn't anything that I am passionate about in my life.It isn't that I don't live... But passion?I mean... I blog.. But not that same now as it used to be. The people who used to blog and who's blogs I used to read aren't there anymore and I have found that I am not

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1154226027284542202006-07-29T20:55:00.000-04:002006-07-29T22:20:27.710-04:00

My sister-in-law and I had a discussion about family last weekend. Namely, that we are as close to our families as we allow ourselves to be.She told a story about her brother going to Italy with their parents and saying to cousins that he wished his family in Canada was as close as they all were in Italy. His Mother (my sister-in-law's mother) was very upset and said to him that if he wanted

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1153876881200956052006-07-25T21:17:00.000-04:002006-07-25T21:21:21.230-04:00

I went to class tonightand took the "correct" exit homeI'm so proud of myselfI broke the habitand started a new one!I rock! *DF does a little dance*OK... so it's not that big a dealbut I take my victories where I can get them!

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1153533983505226502006-07-21T21:16:00.000-04:002006-07-21T22:06:23.583-04:00

I really have nothing to sayI was on a roll for a few daysthen my family called...now I have nothingI get to drive for 4 hours... See family I haven't seem for 6 months or more, in some casesmaybe sleep on an air mattress or the couchthen drive for another 4 hours home.And all I want to do is sleep.All this for my nieces 1st birthday.I still don't understand why people throw huge parties for a

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1153020904592679492006-07-15T22:40:00.000-04:002006-07-15T23:35:05.326-04:00

I was thinking about it...as I was sitting here with my cup of peppermint tea,about how much I enjoy tea.I love the relaxed sensation it brings to your whole body.The warmth and comfort that envelops your fingers and soul just from holding a warm mug and taking those first few sips.I have friends who look forward to going home and sitting having tea with their family.Tea is what brings them

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1152939900788034212006-07-14T23:36:00.000-04:002006-07-15T01:05:01.236-04:00

There is a hierarchy of needsThere five things that you have to have in life to be complete.The Self-Actualization Needs: Self-FulfillmentPersonal Needs: Status, Respect, Prestige.Social Needs: Friendship, Belonging, Love.Safety Needs: Freedom from Harm, Financial Security.Physiological Needs: Food, Water, Sex, Oxygen.ok...from the bottom...physiological needs: the important ones? That means,

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1152719289258549862006-07-12T11:12:00.000-04:002006-07-12T11:48:09.996-04:00

I need to make a list.A list of qualities I want and don't want in a manBecause there's too many freaky people out thereAnd I have a habit of finding themI know I've written about this beforeBut I keep finding new and "exciting" things to add to the list.He must cook (not just make toast - I mean a meal, not KD either)Clean - that's doing laundry, vacuuming, toilets...Not live at home, cause Mom

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1152591105624813712006-07-10T22:32:00.000-04:002006-07-11T00:11:46.580-04:00

How can I describe itHow can I explainThere is a calmness that is in meand a quiet that has comefinallyI see how stressed I was over the last 2 months and I want to apologize to everyone I loveand thank them for their supportStress makes me selfishand self-involvedI forget how to be a personI forget to have conversationsI don't spend enough time with other human beings engaging in real

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1152327770556594352006-07-07T22:55:00.000-04:002006-07-07T23:02:50.583-04:00

I walked in the door today to the best sight ever.The little light on my modem was lit.That one above the letters DSL.I finally have my high-speed back.Of course, yesterday I got home to NO PHONE at all...Cause, why fix the DSL line, when you can just turn off the whole phone and NOT solve the problem?I came home tonightturned on the computercalled a friend and started IMing peoplecaught up with

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1151639861228805552006-06-29T23:49:00.000-04:002006-06-29T23:57:41.256-04:00

She is kindgenerousgivingfunnyand she shares...I owe her a lot.She helped me move.And loaned out her man for the day too.She didn't let me kill my mom. (that's a big deal)Moving...well...I have advice for anyone who is moving...Hire movers...it's easier.You don't end up bruised.And you don't exhaust your friends and family.And...They do all the heavy work.Heavy work sucks.I miss my DSL ... It

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1151333788733872372006-06-26T10:52:00.000-04:002006-06-26T10:56:28.773-04:00

Remember Marshmallow Fluff.That shit was the bomb!!!on a peanut butter sandwich.Oh yeah!It's all gooey and good at the same time...That makes absolutely no sense.ah whatever...I have to much to do to make sense... and now I want to go to the store.Cause I have No bread, peanut butter or Fluff...the cupboards are bare...at both this basement of dispair...and the new home!

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I was packingOK... I'm always packing.. but whatev'sAnd I found a package of Miso soup.And I was excited...I did a little happy dance and everything.So...I took that little package to work today and I had Miso soup for lunch.Now I'm hungry and have no damn Miso soup...I should just go the the Asian foods convenience store around the corner, where I purchase said Miso soup... and buy more.That

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I did nothing today.and by nothing... I mean nothing.I had movie after movie in the DVD player.I managed to eat.I posted a couple of blogs... too many apparentlyI sat around.I chatted with Firefly and BondGirl.The only time I left the house was to go to school.And...I finally feel like I am relaxed.I feel like I can face the world again.Some of those overwhelming emotions are finally going

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1150225117870973092006-06-13T13:03:00.000-04:002006-06-13T14:58:38.310-04:00

OK...so I already said I wanted to do moreAnd I have...but it's just not the same you know...so here I go.11. If you want people to stop thinking you are a whore, stop acting like one. I do not want to hear about your 4 boyfriends and I think you are acting like a child... you are a mother for fuck's sake, start behaving like one.12. You are a better friend to me than I am to you. Thanks.13.

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Remember the intimacy of your first diary.the thoughts placed there, so free and so uplifting.The anger expressed, the joys, the loves and the mishaps of day to day living.Then the discovery that your little brother has found your spare key, and the secret hiding place.All those secret thoughts exposed.So damning.The equivalent of an emotional rape.Then, along came the blog.The electronic version

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1149913741246115222006-06-09T23:49:00.000-04:002006-06-10T00:29:01.300-04:00

Today's At the Gym I observed a gym bunny wearing the tank top with a tube top and who had The perfect hair. She spent 40 minutes following a guy around from machine to machine and fixing her hair while laughing really loudly at everything he said and drinking a lot of water... well.. she kept me very amused while I worked my butt off on the elliptical. And she never actually lifted a weight or

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1149650479324823202006-06-06T22:52:00.000-04:002006-06-06T23:21:19.363-04:00

who borrowed from O'sList ten things you want to say to ten people you know, but never will for whatever reason. Don’t say who they are. (I was confused by the term "people you know", so some of these would be directed to RL people--the rest would be directed to people I've met online. Sorry--no other clues!) Use each person only once.1. I want to forgive you for leaving me. But then again,

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There's no Place like Home... There's no place like home...Damn it...I need to be wearing ruby slippers for that chant to work.Any one have any ruby slippers?Anyone?Bastards! All of you!Ok...I'm sorry!Come back...Really.It's just...well...OK...Let me explain...no that will take to long.let me sum up.After weeks of exhaustive searching and unreturned phone calls I walked into a 2 bedroom at the

Dragonflyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01810912461239492074noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7149512.post-1148479835554592942006-05-24T09:57:00.000-04:002006-05-24T10:10:35.580-04:00

I'm trying desperately not to get discouraged.But everytime I make another appointment, I get a sick feeling in my stomach.There has to be the apartment out there for me... that is exactly what I am looking for.I mean, I don't think I am asking too much.NO basements.NO kids running above me... (if possible)I can't be scrimping and scrounging for money every month.It has to be a clean/half decent

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I never see my family.And by never I mean, there is the once or twice a year gathering that occurs at someone's house within a month of a specific holiday.These are grand affairs... Lots of food, many people - the whole shebang... Basically hours of prep and clean-up after for the "host" family and travel time for everyone else.And frankly... I am not a social person. I mean, I like my family.I

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