Sunday, September 26, 2004
The Weekend With The Boyfriend.
Well it was interesting.
I must admit to feeling anxious throughout most of the weekend, although I am unsure as to whether that being because of Jared or because of being away from home. We went out to get something to eat (just to the mall) and I didn't wasn't really sure what to say to him. Then on the way back to his place the anxiety hit and I said that I wanted to go home. We went for a walk and talked and I asked him what he understood about my condition and then I explained how his actions - seemingly innocent seem to me. I asked where our relationship is going and stated that at this point I do not even know if I am capable of having a relationship - we aren't even in one...
but we talked and he was very understanding and he told me that he loves me and has plans for OUR future and is VERY into me and wants to be with me. So I guess it is my turn to get into me...
I must admit to feeling anxious throughout most of the weekend, although I am unsure as to whether that being because of Jared or because of being away from home. We went out to get something to eat (just to the mall) and I didn't wasn't really sure what to say to him. Then on the way back to his place the anxiety hit and I said that I wanted to go home. We went for a walk and talked and I asked him what he understood about my condition and then I explained how his actions - seemingly innocent seem to me. I asked where our relationship is going and stated that at this point I do not even know if I am capable of having a relationship - we aren't even in one...
but we talked and he was very understanding and he told me that he loves me and has plans for OUR future and is VERY into me and wants to be with me. So I guess it is my turn to get into me...
Dragonfly 9/26/2004 10:51:00 PM