... and into the Light

I should not gloat.
I will not gloat...
I won't stick my tongue out at every one I see...
I can only do the happy dance in the house, alone, and only first thing in the morning...

OK...

I'm already telling everyone...

I'm on vacation again!!!

hehehehe.

I do have a busy week.
I have R to get ready for school. Shopping and organizing and that sort of stuff... but I don't have to go to work. And I have a couple of parties to attend and a concert to see on the 3rd...
The downers of this week
Sarah flies out on the 3rd as well.
There's a lot of driving.
I have to go back to work at the end (still haven't figured out how to get them to pay me to stay home - short of going crazy full-time)

Oh and I hit the 1000 visitor mark - and I didn't even notice until today... I should check and see who it was...
That's cool too!

It's been an exciting week...
And this week will be busy... I will be around - but no guarantees on how much.

Thoughts go in...
But nothing of substance comes out.

It's not scary there.
It's not dark.
Sometimes there's anger and bitterness, but not a lot of it.
Today I want to do nothing, but not stop.
I don't want to think, but I'd like to function coherently.
I would like to say all that's on my mind but I can't string the thoughts together... and too many people are paying attention.
I need affection and attention, but I want to be left alone.
I want to be in the dark, but I crave the sunshine.

I am a walking contradiction.
Because within this I am smiling, content and happy to be alive.

But I am going to go play The Sims...
I feel like being alone... sort of...

Yes...
I think it is!

Whoo Hoo!

I am exhausted.
I hope I dream of firemen.
Naked Firemen...
with long hoses...

oh...

now I'm not tired...

For the last couple of days I have been keeping busy. There's a lot going on.

My best friend is moving to Australia to go to Law school for 2 years. I am going to miss seeing her face but I know I will still talk to her often... she'll even pop into blogger to see what I've been up too - but it won't be the same. She's not going to be here for dinner and movies and emergencies... that'll suck.

I have 4 more days til vacation and it is already going to be chaotic... so much to do and places to go... R is going to be here again. School shopping, BBQ's, The Steven Page concert, a Stag and Doe, the G-Bye Party for S... and more that I can't remember...

I booked an extra day just to recover all by myself - but I think it will be for cleaning and crying. It's the day after the concert and S leaving. Yup - they happen on the same night... her flight is at 5pm, the show starts at 8pm... I don't get to go to the airport. I don't think we could keep it together if I was there though... We'd be a mess together... People would think us insane, I'd have to be committed...

The bird is driving me banananananas... He is getting into everything!!! I seriously want to throw him out the window - which is saying a lot since his wings are clipped and I live in the basement! He has beeen going for the organic garbage bin (in the kitchen) and any loose paper on the computer desk... I am glad he is staying away from the litter box - that used to be a favourite spot for him... eeeewwwwww! So anybody want a bird... temporarily of course!)
Firefly - my slave!?!?
It actually isn't that bad - I just have a low tolerance right now and don't want to put up with him - he is still as cute and loving as ever... he's chatting and calling me (and ringing his bell) from inside his cage - where he is staying because I don't want to chase him this morning...

The apartment has been undergoing some repairs that I have been waiting for for the last 6 months... it has been a long and arduous process... I am ready to kill... I hope they have been fixed proplerly... the landlord is a cheap b*$#h...


But I get up everyday... greatful to have a job that pays well, benefits that support my 'drug' problem - because I had to get my prescription refilled and damn these things are expensive *giggle* - a car to get me from point A to point B that I love to drive, although gas proces are slightly shocking, and good music to cheer my up.

I am looking forward to vacation.
And the concert (as long as I don't think about the other event taking place that day)...
The bird is adorable, and amusing... as long as he stays out of the garbage.
I know I will be alright.
I just have a lot going on...

I must announce my deepest regrets at my absence over the weekend.
This has been my first chance to get to the computer since Wednesday evening and even now my time is very limited.
My new post as Queen Dragonfly is taking up much more time that previously anticipated.

This weekend I had to demote my 2 servants as their training was going nowhere and attend an auction to aquire a new slave...

Fortunately, the new one is much easier to train and has opposable thumbs. She was completely unaware that she was being auctioned off this weekend, it seems E thought Firefly could use some training up and some more social interaction with her "best friend" and thought this the best of both worlds... *evil laugh* ... I do apoplgize for that... I do find the whole situation rather amusing. The look on Firefly's face, was something to behold. I am hoping to have the pictures available soon.

That is...
as soon as Firefly's mood calms down.
She's a little bitter with me at the moment.
But I wouldn't mind a foot rub tonight.

... no matter how many chores you do the list is still really long?

... I am in a relatively good mood, and my anxiety level is high. I am like a tightly wound spring ready to snap at any moment... but for now... it's all good.


Funny Story...
I had finished work and was waiting for the shuttle bus to take me to our parking lot to get my car. All day I had been thinking about Firefly, cause I hadn't talked to her in a while and I was having a dilemna (which I solved) so I bought some peanut M&M's... I was even eating them the way she does and I found an 'F' and an 'N' and couldn't eat them right away... *giggle* I was getting weird looks from people sitting on the Hard Rock Cafe Patio too... And I didn't miss her as much as I was eating them... so...
There is a guy that plays acoustic guitar at the Hard Rock Patio, which is just outside the employee entrance where we catch the shuttle bus...
At that time of day there were just 2 couple on the patio and they had no requests... he looked at me as I was eating my M&M's and I said "You know what I want to hear..." And can you guess what I said???
Can you??

You all thought BareNaked Ladies didn't you!!!
HaHAHAHA

Nope!!!

I shall continue...

Hot Guitar Boy says "Let me think. Oh, I remember. Fuel, right? Shiver. That's it!!!"
Me: "You got it baby!"

So I got to listen to hot, guitar boy play an amazing song while eating an awesome snack.
Thanks Firefly!

Ok... that was a bad ending. But it is a good song.
Seriously... how many of you thought I would say BNL?
Be honest.

I am the queen!
Call my Lady Dragonfly... No wait, Grend31 already does (or one of his alter egos does anyway)! I have managed to stay awake and function semi-coherently and not yell at anyone for the last 2 days even though I am really tired.

Last night I made the mistake of sitting on the couch upon getting home from work.
Around 10:30pm I noticed the time and this thought entered my head... 'oh...I wanted to blog. I was going to *touch* MooCow tonight.' and then I giggled for 5 minutes. But I still didn't get off the couch... I need to move the computer closer to the couch.

My dad - was released from the hospital on Sunday, and was told to see his family Doctor ASAP. He says he's not leaving town until they figure out what is wrong with him, so... OK... that is all.
I just want to call him an idiot, hit him for scaring me and them hug him again... and maybe hit him once more to remind him to look after himself... Calling him an idiot makes me feel better so I'll call him an idiot again too... "idiot"...

8 more working days until vacation...
Yup - I have another one...
August RAWKS!!!

I need to post something with substance...
Tomorrow.

I have to go to work in 30 minutes.
My hair is still wet - but I let it dry naturally anyway.
I am half in my uniform - but I don't put my shirt on until right before I walk out the door.
My lunch is packed and im my bag.
I am exhausted - but that is expected after the day I had yesterday.

Lets's recap - as I didn't get to post...

Friday, after I finished posting and before going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (it's even better the 2nd time) - the phone rings. My sister informs me my dad has checked himself into the hospital with major stomach pains and is on morphine (something I am sure he likes) and that they dont know what is wrong with him. Since I am going to Kincardine anyway - I am to check on him!!! SO...
I go to the movie.

Them R and I get up, drive to Kincardine, I leave her at home and go see my dad.
He's fine.
Really!
Not in pain.
Not on the morphine anymore.
They won't discharge him over the weekend.
Test results haven't come in yet.
So I hang with him for a while.
Then I go to R's house and have a nap - stress will do that too a girl.

Then I take the long way home - stupid construction.

So I get in around 10:30...
I now get anxious on the highway after dark... I am hoping this is a temporary, over-exhaustion, stress related issue not something to really 'worry' about (mind you idiot's were weaving in and out of traffic at ridiculous speeds and shooting past me...I don't like that)
And I went to bed.
AFTER drinking an insane amount of water and a bottle of Gatorade as I didn't drink enough yesterday.
Needless to say I was up 3 times to pee through the night... once I even got lost and woke up the bird because I walked into his cage... I'm thinking I should leave a light on when I drink that much water.

So now I am going to work.
Hopefully my brain will function and I will stay awake.

I may ask if I can come home early.
I need to get some sleep.
So tired still and am still feeling dehydrated!

The cat is searching for R... it is kind of cute.

Why? Because vacations aren't permanent. Money doesn't grow on trees.

I need me a sugar daddy.
I don't want to go back to work.
I could go crazy again and go off work... disability wasn't that bad... wait - who am I kidding. Disability SUCKED!!!

Vacation has been great, hanging out, not doing anything.
Windsor was wonderful.
My neices are cool. The baby is adorable and TINY!!! I didn't see Julia when she was that small. Allison at 3 weeks is the teeny, tiny and 21 inches long and 8 lbs. But she's cool.
Not cool enough that I want one - my sister does though...

R was great. She is having fun.
She got some clothes and a bag for school.
We went to a book warehouse today and she found some books she is dying to start reading, but has to finish reading her other book first.

Did I mention I don't want to go back to work.
2 more days...
That sucks huge.

Tonight... we're off to see a movie.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I've seen it... She hasn't.
I don't think it's a sacrifice to see it again.
I'm still on vacation you know!

Saturday started out like any other day. Of course right now I have a 12 year old living in my house. Strange, she is so quiet, does her own thing, doesn't like to bother anyone...she's so funny.

So I force her to "help" clean the bird cage. Yup it finally got done.
AND it is now spotless - or it was until the bird got back in there...stupid bird. (but I digress!)
Then we were rewarded by going to see a movie. That's how it works you see - you do a chore and then you get a treat. That's the payment.

The movie was alright, she liked it. Stealth could have been much more action filled, but why waste money on action sequences when Jessica Biel can frollic in a bikini by a waterfall...

Right now she's playing the Sims...
I'm on the computer.
I am thinking about napping.
Later she's going into S's attic to collect cat toys, the payment will be the drive-in (but that won't be until the next time she's here in 3 weeks due to S's work schedule).

Kids are fun!

I am officially on vacation.
Sure, I have my godchild with me for the week, but we have nothing planned. No responsibilities...

Just a bird cage to clean... and it WILL get done or we don't get to have any fun. *pout* I am so mean...

We are taking off to see my brother and the new baby and family during the week but those are the only CONCRETE plans.

I don't have to be back to work until next SUNDAY!!!

I am thrilled!!

I could dance and sing...
maybe I'll just sing....

Tra la la la la...
LA LA!!!

After much deliberation, I decided to be interviewed by the ever-ingenious VegasGustan. As I am kind of tired I am not sure how insightful my answers will be, but I will do my best.

1. If you were not a Dragonfly what would you be?

I was in deep contemplation about this not too long ago. I did not choose to be a Dragonfly, it was given to me. But if you are going to make me choose... I would choose to just be me. Not a screen name, or a persona. Not a character on a computer, but just me.

2. Would you like it if Georgie could actually talk and carry on a conversation?

The sad thing is... I do talk and carry on conversations with that daffy bird. Just because no one else understands what he is saying doesn't mean it isn't a real conversation. It would be nice if he could tell me that his foot hurts, or his prch is too low. Or that he really does need his cage cleaned - gosh darn it... but I don't think I would jump up and do anything any quicker if he talked any clearer than he already does...

3. You are now 70 years old and have lived a nice life, what are you most proud of?

The novels I have written, and the impact they have made on the lives of the people who have read them. (especially yours VG! Did you like the autograghed copy you got? *wink*)

4. Firefly asks you to be the Maid of Honor at her and E's wedding, what would you say for your toast?

Oh my GOD!!! Maid of Honor for Firefly AGAIN!!! Can I wear the same dress? It fits again... Kidding... OK seriously... Thinking cap in place... Firefly doesn't want speeches... a toast...

Firefly, wandering along this crazy thing called life comes to a fork in the road. There's the dark,long, scary path, and the short,bright cheery path. One is hard and the other easy. Both lead to E. She picks the hard one. Always up for a challenge this girl. It took her a while, and she had many lessons to learn on the way, but when she came out on the dark, long, scary path she was stronger, wiser and a definitly ready for the man of her dreams to sweep her off her feet... and that he has.
May the paths the two of you take from now on be the short, cheery paths.
Now - lets get smashed!!!


5. (James Lipton Alert) What profession would you like to try?
7 - 10 pm Disc Jockey at ?where do you work again VG? What's that? That's taken. Oh well.

I would like to write. Write what? My novel(s) and get paid to do it... That would be great.


I hope I did these questions justice. Who's up next?


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2. I will respond by asking you five questions on your blog (not the same questions you see here)
3. You will update your blog/site with the answers to the questions
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions

My mantra in the pool has become:

I will not stop moving my arms.
I will not stop moving my arms.
I will not stop moving my arms.
Holy cow my abs are sore.
I will not sstop moving my arms.


The ab workout in aquafit is unreal. I cannot believe how sore I am!!

Tomorrow I will feel every muscle in my arms and legs, especially when I do that first squat of the day - to change the first bag of tokens at work!!!
That's when I start my work mantra:
I love my job!
I love my job!
I love my job!

Oh - and we had free time tonight in the pool...
I got to go down the big slide...
TWICE!!!

Good times!!!