... and into the Light

I haven't disappeared. I promise.

I went away on vacation.
Remember that secret I was talking about. I don't feel like looking for the actual post and linking to it... I AM on vacaction, and I just don't want to... *sticks tonngue out in defiance* WELL!!!

I flew to Newfoundland and surprised a good friend, one of my best frineds from college actually. Dea had no idea I was coming to visit, and as she reads my blog so I couldn't post about my pending trip... it was very difficult. I suck at keeping secrets.

But I am here now, and having a great time. It is amazing and beautiful here in NFLD and, yes, I am actually relaxing... weird huh...

I've almost filled ONE of my memory cards!!!!
That's OK though I have another one!
There will be lots of pictures to go up when I get back home - but I have to get ready - we're heading out again.. it's overcast today, but it should be a great day to head out to the ocean AGAIN!!!!
Actually - I have no idea where they are taking me today... I just go... yesterday was Signal Hill - it was amazing, the sun was out and it was an absolutely gorgeous day...
Today????

My favourite phrase so far: If you don't like the forecast in Nfld: wait 5 minutes!

Ok... It's been a long week.
SO much going on.. But nothing at the same time. You know, basically it's life just, uninteresting.

My mood has improved, in that I am eating again, my appetite is back and better than ever!!
Today I wanted to murder all of the stupid people that came to my window today... And there were many. So I decided not to go to work tomorrow. I am getting paid. But I don't have to go to work.
That calls for a celebration.

I think I'll go to the gym!

I have gone through 2 jars of salsa this week. 2!!! Is that excessive? I mean, really? I am almost done the second box of triscuits and I only ate one container of cream cheese, but 2 jars of salsa!!! That's crazy! Isn't it?

You know how you point the camera and click just to see what happens... well I did that and got the impossible shot.

I was hoping to get a shot of all the players around the net. Instead I got the last goal of the game... Not that I'm complaining.. but really... that wasn't my intention.

I know it's a little blurry, I was seated across the arena and behind the opposite goal, and the guys are moving... but it's a pretty cool shot if you ask me...

oh and the final score...



5-3 Leafs!

Ever wonder what happens when a really shy girl lies to get a boy to go out with her...

yeah.

Well.
It doesn't turn out so well!

Especially when the boy runs into old friends, and meets up with a current friend, unexpectedly (and it really was unexpectedly).
He was going to the game too... He kept coming to the Bar where our seats were and complaining that our seats were better... Funny cause they really were!

The boy then offers the current friend a ride back to the Falls with us.

I was referred to as a friend from work, and was bought drinks and food from the tag-a-long friend.
It was a weird messed up kind of night.
I don't know how to describe it.
And I don't really want to.

What did I learn?
No more schemes that leave me out big money!!!

Have you ever been so nervous about something you were gonna throw up?

I feel like that right now.
And the game isn't until tomorrow.
It's gonna be a long night...

HE called tonight... just now... and, well remember that scene in DodgeBall where Kate throws up in her mouth a little bit... that was me...
My stomach did a back flip and I thought I was gonna fall over.
It probably didn't help that I was sitting on the balance ball at the computer, when the phone rang, but still... I nearly fell over.

I was never like this in high school.
What the hell happened to me?

It's just a boy... that's all I have to remember.

You ever really want to know something.
And get the runaround from the person holding the information.
Sometimes it just happens to be a simple technical error - when most of the communicating is over instant message or e-mail.
Sometimes it is lack of true communication...

It took my getting frustrated and PICKING UP THE PHONE and basically freaking out to get the information I required from the person I have been having communication problems with.

Confused?
You should be.

This all revolves around the secret... One of them.. And I suck at keeping secrets...
GGRRR!!!

Why is it that, in this, the information age, communication has become so difficult for so many?
Too many people are impatient and incapable of picking up the phone (myself included) and yet we complain about no one talking to one another.
I work in a place with multiple departments all reliant on eachother and no one can send a memo or call the department heads and pass on relevant information as it comes in... And they say that communication is one of our company "goals and policies". Hell, even inter-departmental communication is brutal, no one knows anything and we all have the same memos, we work beside eachother...

Wow... I never whine about work...

Communication.. That's what I was talking about... Right...
um...
where was I?
Might it have something to do with society suddenly having no patience, a lack of concentration and everyone suddenly being just a little ADHD!
Or addicted to caffeine?

I think I'm just losing my mind.

And I need to calm down.
I finally got the info I require
And it's all falling into place...
I just need to get my homework done.

Today was a gorgeous spring day... perfect for continuing the insanity that has plagued me this week...
I decided to focus the "creative" energy (cause that's what I am calling it now) and do something productive at the same time.
So I did something I did every spring (and again every fall). I cleaned Georges cage.
Now it's sensational!
See!




Although - he has no food yet.. that's how it gets messy.
Oh... and he's not allowed in it yet either...
I'd like it to stay clean for an hour or two!



I don't know.. he seems happy... as long as I keep having him pose!

Once again I can safely say I have proof to the extent of my craziness and should not be left to my own devices.
Yet this time I had an accomplice!

And for once, it wasn't Firefly!

There is a boy at work that I have a ... Well... Crush on.
But crush is the wrong word.
Mostly I just want to bring him home and leave him tied to my bed to use as I see fit - but that is besides the point.
The problem is that I am a very shy person and lack the social graces to approach "men" (for lack of a better word) and flirt without making a total ass of myself and really prefer that they come to me. This is part of the reason why I have been single for so long... the other is that I am completely oblivious to their signals as well... but I digress.

Upon chatting with a friend, who thinks it is about time I got out there and did something to push destiny along (and in my favour) my friend suggested I ask this boy out and in doing so I had to come up with a gimmick.
This is what we came up with.

I have a friend who works for a company, this friend gave me tickets to a hockey game - The "crushes" favourite team in the whole world!!! I call the crush, conveniently my friend has his number and invite him to the game with me. HE says that he can make the game (I nearly died... Oh MY GOD!!!) and asked if I was going to wear a jersey. I said I would be borrowing one from a friend. HE said he would lend me one of his... (OH MY GAWD!!!!) We talked for a couple more minutes - I am not going into details cause I need to calm down - SERIOUSLY!!!! But he said he'd see me at work on Thursday, the next day we are both in.

Then I had to go and BUY tickets!!!!
Cause this was all a LIE!!!
My friend (who does work for the team didn't give me tickets, I made that up, I just needed a gimmick.
I am INSANE, certifiable...
AND I am blowing off my families Easter dinner (BTW - they changed the date just for me - to go to a LEAFS game on a date!!!! That I am paying for!!!
OH MY GAWD!!!!

I think I hear the men with the straight jackets now... I gotta go!

If anyone has some spare change lying around... I could sure use it...
send it to
Crazy lady
AKA - Dragonfly
Niagara Falls
Canada

They'll know where I am!
Thanks!)

Sometimes I forget to stop and smell the roses, as it were? I forget how beautiful a place I live in. This is so peaceful, so serene. Standing near the Falls themselves the sound fills you and you automatically begin to relax. A walk along the river above the Falls is awe inspiringly peaceful too.





I took this picture on a day out with my Mom. I wasn't out able to get to my favourite spot - right where the water cascades over the edge, Mom was too tired. But I will get there and remind myself of the beauty of the seven wonders of the world.

I love that I live in a place where you can forget and remember how special your city is... I just wish I didn't take it for granted.

OK.. I hadn't been able to figure out February (so it got skipped) - but I think I finally figured out this picture posting thing just in time for March, and besides, the numbers are basically the same!!! How cool is this!


That's a lot of elephants!

She's gonna call and yell at me... but I love this picture.

I finally figured out how to download from the camera to the computer... The world is my oyster... And Firefly is my model of the day!!!

I'm off to class...
cya!

Senseless dribble is all I can spew forth.
there is nothing there.

I want to write the truth about all I am feeling.
Yet the emotions are so conflicted I can't made sense of them myself.

Shadow is leaving next week.
She's going to Jen's house to live there.
I will miss her quiet purr, her little meow and her insistent chirp when I have done something to annoy her - or just plain ignored her.

Every morning I wake up to a coughing fit - my eyes are itchy, they water and they burn.
The "medicine" the allergist gave me makes my chest hurt so I stopped taking it a long time ago, and the eye drops burn, so I refuse to take them.
It isn't that I suffer needlessly, these symptoms aren't going to go away, and every medication I take is going to affect me in some form.

I am almost ready to go on leave again until this is straightened out I am just so frustrated, but then I will be home with the cat.

I know I made a mistake in getting her.
I should never have made the choice of replacing a boyfriend with an animal, knowing that I had an allergy.
Now I have to give her to someone who wants her just as much as I do.
It makes me a little sad.
I know I am strong enough to do it.
I just just hate that I have to.