... and into the Light

Sorry, I haven't been writing (here). Yes, I am ok.
I started writing in my NEW journal on January 1st… after spewing all sorts of thoughts, anger, and angst into the old one on Dec 31st. I feel like I have been liberated emotionally. I have taken this motto to heart.

New Page: everyday I write about my day, emotional state, and any thoughts… just one page a day.
New Chapter: I am starting a new chapter in my life, a new phase of my life cycle that may not be what or where I thought it would be but it is where I find myself right now.
New Book: Keep looking forward, my story hasn't been written. I don't have/know the ending.

It seems cliche, I know it does, but its amazing what has opened to me since this revelation, this realization that I can close the book on my past, and just start a new story.

And when I saw the ex… I didn't feel that emotional pull/connection that I have felt in the past. I still mourn (at times) for the relationship, for the loss… but I soon remember to stop feeling sorry for myself and get on with it.

Its been an interesting start tot the year. I even started a 2016 memory jar, where I put in positive and memorable things that happen to me in 2016 that I can review on New Years Eve. I started out with a little note.

I am trying to stay positive, I feel I am succeeding. I am holding my motto to heart. I would love to add copout/pictures to my walls… but I am afraid to spend money on extras… But I'm doing well regardless.

I finally have a motto. Something to focus on, something to remind me that my story isn't written yet. I am trying to stay positive. I am trying.

I want to change the themes of both blogs… I love the imagery this one holds, but I really do want that New Page, New Chapter, New Book to transfer into every aspect…
the problem is that I didn't create this them, It was Jan… and I really don't remember how to do it anymore.  Wow…

I am Losing my marbles, they are scattering about. Its hard to remember things I once knew, thoughts I just held, and its ok. So much stress, so much pain for so long. This is my new page, in my new chapter, in my new book… accepting this story as it is. Unwritten with the potential for greatness.