... and into the Light

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Addiction / Obsession = Exhaustion

I have a very special friend.
She knows me better than I care to admit sometimes.
And well.. She surprises me with little gifts that mean so much.

She got me something (which was completely unnecessary - but she wanted to say thank-you and really a card would have been just fine) so she got me something that has kept me from the gym.. made work completely intolerable (more than usual, that is), and made me not want to go to bed even though I am completely exhausted thanks to a lovely new medication, care of my fantastic doctorB (the B is for Bargain!)
***10 points if you said that in your head with Dr. Nicks voice!

Yup - she got me Tiger Woods 2006 for the PS2.

Now I don't know if you remember all the updates from the 2005 version of this game.
But there were many... I could link them... But I am pretty sure it would be easier to link the entire month of January, February and March of 2005... Because anytime I beat a player of any name or stature there would be a post.. OH MY GOD>>> I finally beat Rich Beam.... Pathetic really....

Yesterday.. I kicked Tiger Woods ass in a putting contest.
His fault really... He challenged me.
Bastard should know better.

Needless to say.
I need sleep.. And a phone reminder to check e-mail, and to blog... Or join humanity to find something worth blogging about.. Because for the next few months it appears to be the video game - again!
Dragonfly 8/19/2006 10:34:00 PM | 4 beautiful people telling me what they think |

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Productivity or bust?

I was up at 7:30 am this morning.
it is now 10:30 am.

I am on my 3rd load of laundry.
I've washed the floors.
Vacuumed.
And done up the few dishes that were in the sink.
Took out the garbage and recycling.
I made the bed, but will probably unmake it so I can wash the sheets on my next load of laundry.
I also did some filing (paperwork)... Boring, I haven't done it since I moved.
And I had breakfast.

Next on my list...
a shower.

***EDIT***
OK... it only got worse...
I fixed the table (the legs needed to be tightened).
Did 2 more loads of laundry, one of them was the bed sheets.
Flipped the mattress.
Cleaned the bathroom.
Hung my kitty tile and my key box and a really big mirror (and various other things).
Blow dried my hair... that's 20 minutes work right there.
Changed addresses that I haven't changed since moving - you know... the unimportant ones.
And various other tasks that I can't remember... but I was busy until Firefly arrived a little after 3pm.

And I haven't really stopped yet... but I will.

Tasks have already started piling up for tomorrow.
Fun?
Dragonfly 8/08/2006 10:40:00 AM | 3 beautiful people telling me what they think |

Monday, August 07, 2006

Something to be "proud" of?

Remember when I first started at the gym, and I was lifting 23 elephants, and burning off the equivelant of 23 ice cream sundaes. Now it just doesn't seem as impressive.





I am still going.
I really am.
It just seems I am not doing the same workout... I'm just not going as often and not lifting as much as I used to.
These "progress reports" don't give me the same lift that they used to.
And yet here I am sitting at home...
that isn't helping get those numbers up.
Dragonfly 8/07/2006 06:07:00 PM | 0 beautiful people telling me what they think |

Friday, August 04, 2006

The Passion

I recently filled out a survey that asked me what I was passionate about.
I had to stop and think about it.

I realized there really isn't anything that I am passionate about in my life.
It isn't that I don't live... But passion?

I mean... I blog.. But not that same now as it used to be. The people who used to blog and who's blogs I used to read aren't there anymore and I have found that I am not writing the way I used too. Even moving my blog hasn't really opened me up the way it used to. I know the individual I wanted to avoid is not reading it... But I am not writing as often as I used to, or as openly as I could. So is the passion for my blog(s) there, I don't think so.

The gym... that's not a passion. It's not even an obsession anymore. I go because I don't want to return to the body shape and weight that I was before. I refuse. So - calling it a passion, that's just wrong.

Music... um no Not even close anymore. I don't buy it or listen to it as much as I did when I was younger.

Movies... not to much... I like them.. but usually it's background noise.

Tea... yum.. but that's not a passion.

Reading... That's a necessity for living, not a passion. I mean, if I didn't have a good book to keep me calm before bed, or keep me company on the shuttle to and from work I would be forced to think and that would just get me into trouble. Serious trouble. Reading is the only escape from reality that I have and frankly... I need it, like a druggie needs that next score.

I like to cook - should I start having dinner parties so I can cook for my friends? Because cooking for more than one person is better than cooking for one.
I already bring a friend "lunch" when I make myself dinner. Basically I share my leftovers. She calls it free food, I call it not eating the same thing 5 days in a row.
But to say that cooking is a passion... now, now, I just like a GOOD meal every now and then, and I have the ability to make it myself. Although, I do like to go out and have someone else make it for me, like the sushi chef, or the Hot and Sour Soup chef... so whatever!

Is the bird a passion? No.. He's a pain in the ass.

Friends? Um... I love my friends, but I can't say I am passionately in love with my friends!!! Um.. No.. They don't count...


So what's the verdict?
Do I lack passion?
or am I just too conservative to become fully "wrapped" into something?
Dragonfly 8/04/2006 09:26:00 PM | 0 beautiful people telling me what they think |