Monday, July 10, 2006
A little bit of...
How can I describe it
How can I explain
There is a calmness that is in me
and a quiet that has come
finally
I see how stressed I was over the last 2 months and I want to apologize to everyone I love
and thank them for their support
Stress makes me selfish
and self-involved
I forget how to be a person
I forget to have conversations
I don't spend enough time with other human beings engaging in real conversations with give and take and actual thought
My brain synapses have become lapse or stagnant
Writing is difficult
as there is nothing to say
and the words are all hidden
there are things that I know...
I know that I am nothing without my friends
I know that I love my apartment
I know that I am frustrated with the dregs of humanity that have come traipsing into my place of work (cause seriously, can they be any more stupid?) ~ this sentence proves that I am functioning on a less than perfect level myself ~ But whatever, it's my blog!
I know I am dissatisfied with my French class - mostly because of the teacher (or lack thereof), and the fact that I am teaching myself a language and I have no idea what I am trying to learn. I also have no one to practice it with, who knows what they are saying. I feel like it is a lost cause.
I know that somewhere amongst this calm and sedentary brain of mine I am going to be fine.
I know I am tired of movie title blog titles.
I know... that I am home.
How can I explain
There is a calmness that is in me
and a quiet that has come
finally
I see how stressed I was over the last 2 months and I want to apologize to everyone I love
and thank them for their support
Stress makes me selfish
and self-involved
I forget how to be a person
I forget to have conversations
I don't spend enough time with other human beings engaging in real conversations with give and take and actual thought
My brain synapses have become lapse or stagnant
Writing is difficult
as there is nothing to say
and the words are all hidden
there are things that I know...
I know that I am nothing without my friends
I know that I love my apartment
I know that I am frustrated with the dregs of humanity that have come traipsing into my place of work (cause seriously, can they be any more stupid?) ~ this sentence proves that I am functioning on a less than perfect level myself ~ But whatever, it's my blog!
I know I am dissatisfied with my French class - mostly because of the teacher (or lack thereof), and the fact that I am teaching myself a language and I have no idea what I am trying to learn. I also have no one to practice it with, who knows what they are saying. I feel like it is a lost cause.
I know that somewhere amongst this calm and sedentary brain of mine I am going to be fine.
I know I am tired of movie title blog titles.
I know... that I am home.
Dragonfly 7/10/2006 10:32:00 PM
3 Comments:
Take a deep breath. You are great.
You are beautiful just the way you are. Never lose sight of that. We all are lost at times in the ways of the world around us and even the worlds we create for ourselves. But never lose sight of who you really are because that is beautiful.
TDG: Thanks. YOU are a great friend.
NDF: Thank you. you are my inspiration.
NDF: Thank you. you are my inspiration.